Thursday, October 23, 2008

Something is rotten in the state of Denmark

In case you've been wondering if I'm still around, why yes, I am. I am having a bit of a rough patch though. Up until yesterday I'd thought my biggest challenge was surviving this student teaching experience. I was just thinking I could see a hint of light at the end of the tunnel (three weeks to go and counting). And then my hateful supervisor once again did her best to imply I'm thoroughly incompetent. Not once has she offered a single helpful suggestion. She has, however, misinterpreted every single thing I say, twisting my words and using them against me (and putting it in my permanent file, no less). I'm beginning to fear that she may actually prevent me from passing the student teaching portion of my program. If I get to the end and find I've done this all for nothing, I can't even begin to imagine how I'll deal with the situation.

I'm not saying I'm the best student teacher. I am saying that every day, I do my best. I deserve to pass. I don't deserve a teacher-of-the-year award, but I deserve to pass.

On a somewhat related note, a second classmate of mine dropped out of student teaching. Now we're down to four people. Why am I the only person that finds this troublesome?

10 comments:

Mom to Baby J said...

Sorry for the not so good experience. Is there any way you can have your teacher write you an evaluation to put in your file as well?

Also sorry for not commenting in a very long time. You know, life gets teh crazy.

BerryBird said...

That just blows! I think you should continue dangling the light-at-the-end-of-the-tunnel carrot in front of yourself; no matter what happens, it will still be over in three weeks. Hopefully she is being mean just for the fun of it and won't really follow through.

Momma Val said...

That totally blows! Try to keep your head up.

coffeypot said...

Two things: one, go to her boss and have a hart to hart about your experiences and how she is affecting your future, and, two, tell me where she lives and I will go over and break her legs.

Smellyann said...

Oh, my gosh, I'm so sorry you're dealing with that! :( :( :( I agree with the advice you've received about going over her head and talking to her boss. I'll keep good thoughts for you that you PASS!!!

Mary Stebbins Taitt said...

I'll go over and break her nexk. Lemme at her! What an @$$~ :-(

DO collect evaluations and recommendations from teacher(s) and others in case you need them.

DO remember this too will pass.

And unfortunately, no matter where you work or go to school, there are sometimes jerks you have to put up with and survive--who make life MISERABLE.

There was one such when I worked at second home. Everyone hated her. She made up false stories about people and passed them on to the bosses etc. I used to wish she would DIE - - and on Thanksgiving weekend (seriously), she was in a car accident and died. I sort of felt guilty for my terrible thoughts, but to be honest, not too guilty.

If your super is such, may she fall off the end of a short pier into a very deep hole. (Should I put a curse on her?)

I always think most people can be redeemed, but If they are causing that much trouble, sending them far far away might be a good idea.

Maybe she has a dream that she wants to live in Hawaii and would be thrilled to be there and maybe that will happen Tomorrow! hmmmm. I like the idea of a "curse" that saves the person who is being tortured without actually hurting the perpetrator. Maybe.

Jennifer (aka swissmiss) said...

Oh boy I hope she doesn't get in your way. Is there somebody you can go to and say something along the lines of "hey, sometimes I think I could do such and such better but my supervisor never offers me constructive criticism or gives me suggestions" to put it on record that she's less that helpful and maybe to take anything she might say/write with a grain of salt?

Momma Val said...

I am wishing her to be abducted by aliens and probed very painfully, never to return to earth again!!! I too have had HORRIBLE co-workers and nasty bosses (liars, dorks, bitches, & skags). Made me want to be a sahm even more :) Think that knowing I would be one one day was my light at the end of my tunnel. Keep your chin up!

Nadine said...

Thanks for all the support, everyone! I am somewhat hesitant to go to her boss because she is his PhD student and I'm afraid he'll just back her up no matter what. Plus, I'm a big wuss when it comes to that kind of confrontation.

One good thing at least is that my host teacher told me that I am doing exactly what she would be doing. Hopefully she'll have my back if need be...

BerryBird said...

Hmmm. That makes me wonder. Where you are teaching isn't exactly the ivory tower... Maybe the PhD-candidate TA is a little out of touch with the realities of your district. I assume your host teacher will be providing a written statement or evaluation for your file? Her word seems more meaningful in this situation.