Sometimes I feel sorry for myself. Sad about being alone, even when I know it is my choice. Most of the time, though, I love being alone. Most of the time I am happy that it's just me and the dogs.
It was so nice to come home to a quiet house tonight. There was no one being petty and mean, no one calling me names when they think I'm out of earshot. I may not have a single person that puts me first in this world, but I also don't have a house full of people that put me down.
Sometimes there's nothing wrong with being alone. Nothing at all.
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I know the feeling.I love being alone too - I like how independent I am - but there are days that I hate it - that I miss being surrounded by my family. As much as I complained about it - looking back even though we were dysfunctional I loved it - and now that those dynamics are gone (my parents just recently got divorced) I miss it all.
I also think I am too selective about my friends - I only allow myself to get close to a select few - and when they let me down - it really hurts and I seclude even further into myself - and that happened to me just recently - I enjoy being alone until moments like that. When someone I trust lets me down and I have to be alone instead of wanting to be alone.
Sorry for the crazy long comment - your post just really hit the nail on the head about how i have been feeling lately. I shouldn't feel alone though - because I'm not - at all. I have my wonderful husband who is behind me and supporting me - even on days when I am sad for myself for being alone - despite obviously being with him - taking him for granted.
I just see what other people have - great relationships with their mothers, sisters and their girl friends - and I want that. I have a mother, sister and girl friends - but I don't have that - the people who I should be able to count on are the people who 9 times out of 10 won't answer my call. Makes me wonder what is wrong with me - I know it isn't me - but sometimes it feels like it.
wow - ok that is one long comment. I think it is longer than your post - haha! Sorry! LOL. I am all reflective tonight apparently. :)
Has someone been mean to you, calling you names??? :( I hope not, lemme at 'em.
I loved living by myself, too, just me and ma dog (and then the kitty). So much freedom, so little answering to anyone else. Ahhhh, enjoy some of it for me.
i wish i was just me and the dog
I lived alone for 20 years and I really loved it and now that I am with a family, I sometimes (often) wish I were still alone! :-(
Other times I am happy for the loving.
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